My Dream Job

I’m starting to feel like my dream of working in video production is slipping away. It’s now been six years since I finished university, which is much longer than I studied in the first place. If I was to ever get hired, I’d probably have to do some sort of short course to learn more about the way video production works today. Technology is always improving and progressing and if you don’t get ahead of the curve, you fall behind. Having not studied for six years now, I’ve definitely started to fall behind. I think my dream is over.

Now that I’m reflecting on my failed dream, I can’t help but feel an intense sadness that isn’t going to go away any time soon. I’ve been striving for this dream for over ten years now. Now, I’ll never step foot in a reputable 2D animation company, let alone work for one. It’s devastating that everything I’ve worked towards has been for nothing, but I guess I just need to see what else is out there in the world for me. Hopefully, I’m moving on to bigger and better things, although it doesn’t really feel like it at the moment. 

I wish that things had just worked out for me. Why couldn’t I be like everyone else and just automatically land a job that provides video production services for Melbourne businesses? They all made it look so easy that I thought it would be easy for me too. I couldn’t be more wrong. I wonder if these people knew other people in the industry and that’s why they were able to get jobs. I didn’t know anyone in the industry and still don’t, which I’m guessing has put me on the back burner. Getting a job is all about who you know these days and I don’t know anyone.

Anyway, I’m not sure what the trajectory of my life will be going forward. I’m just going to figure it out as I go.