Sacrificing The Plants

The time is ticking and I’m watching it tick by. It’s making me anxious because I have so much to do and such little time to do it. Thankfully, I’ve been given a little bit of extra time but that also means that the workload has gone up and I have to satisfy those requirements to be able to use the extra time. It’s quite stressful, to be perfectly honest.

It doesn’t help that I also have heaps of other things to stress and worry about. There is so much going on in my sharehouse right now that it’s consuming my mind. We have a cockroach issue, internet issues and house cleaning schedule issues. Because of this, I’ve had to dedicate all my time to sorting out this drama rather than tending to my beautiful rose plant which needs me to look after it. I need to dedicate more time to it in order to have it flourish and if I don’t, it will likely die. I don’t think you understand how stressful this actually is for me.

Why is the saying “if it rains it pours,” so darn true? This is always the way. Especially for me. Any time that I’m starting to feel happy or comfortable with my life, it seems like the world throws a curveball at me which either turns my life upside down (in the worst case scenario) or makes it bumpy. I don’t want to have to deal with the bumps!

As I said before, all I want to deal with is the should-be stunning miniature roses that are supposed to be blossoming this time of year. But they’re not blossoming because I’m not taking care of them. As time flies past, it’s getting more and more likely that my roses will die completely and that will be the icing on the cake in terms of my life. I hope my housemates understand how much I’m sacrificing on a day-to-day basis to be able to support us.